Dear A

Life is full of surprises.

Dear A,


I want you to know something. Please know that I am trying. I am trying real hard. From the bottom of my heart, I miss you so much. More than words can say. I felt like there is this big barrier, separating us apart. Where I am thrown to a place I hardly recognize. A world of black and white. 


Dear A,


Life would be so meaningful if it's all about you. I know my life would. It did, but where did it turned out wrong?  I never expected things to turn out the way it did. I know you have a great plan for me ahead. Whatever the plans are, all I wanted is a place in your heart. Not more than that. 


Dear A,


You knew me more than anyone. Perhaps more than I know myself, you know what I wanted. Blow the light in my heart again, so that I am able to breathe heaven's air. Return to me the serenity you had bestowed. When I look into the mirror, I no longer recognize the reflection. 


Dear A, 


Hear me, watch me. I will be there one day. Not of me for what I am today, but a greater and better me, insyaAllah. So that one day, I will not stand before you, ashamed. For that day that I am able to look at you, just one glance of you, would be the greatest gift of all.


Dear A,


Thank you for always being there for me, for being my strength. I believe that it was not a serendipity that I ran into you, but it was a sealed fate. For you are my heart, my life, my Allah.

                                                                      Your humble servant, 
                                                                                                   Myra