Mungkin Padanya

  Padanya awan mendung itu sudah berarak pergi. 

Padanya satu kisah itu sudah ditamati.

 Siapa tahu dia masih mahu menguji. 

Mungkinkah supaya dirinya tidak melupai.

 Mungkinkah demi dirinya tidak dilukai. 

Kebenaran yang cuba Dia beri.

Menguji kesabaran yang sudah tiada lagi. 

Mencarik kekuatan yang hampir mati. 

                                      Yang jatuh bangunnya,

                                                                        Myra

KENAPA SAYA SUKA ANNAS EASKEY ?

Assalamualaikum. 

So, just now buka website Annas Easkey. Siapa tak kenal kann, he is none other than the famous and talented Malaysian photographer ! To be honest, I am proud to say that we have such talent and passion for photography  in Malaysia ! I am a fan of photography myself, dan saya sangat-sangat meminati Annas Easkey's photos! ( Banyak sangat exclamation mark ni maksudnya saya sangat excited okay ! )

Okay, the question is KENAPA SAYA SUKA ANNAS EASKEY ?

Hmm.

 

Easy peasy lah Annas =)

Normal people take pictures but professionals shoot them. And the way you shoot is just simply AMAZING ! Browsing through your photographs, rasa macam tengok album America's Next Top Model  tahuuu ! All the pictures are just right, macam kena je dengan background and the colour mixture of the picture. Oh Oh ! And what I love the most about you Annas Easkey is, your photography has a story in it. Like it's not just all about the perfect shot, but it's beyond that. When I see your photograph, I can feel something like a story is being told with just a snapshot. And you know who shoots pictures like that ? YOU, ANNAS EASKEY ! Seriously,  you shoot as great as Nigel Barker. My favourites are pictures that are full with emotion, like the 4th picture at the top from left. That is honestly REMARKABLE ! I love love love it. And the picture beside it pun is my favourite. I could tell every story that is in your photographs ! 

THESE ARE JUST RARE AND BEAUTIFUL <3

Okay, for example, the picture of the girl looking back. That is also listed in my favs. This picture, for me is about a girl who looked very strong on the outside, but inside she's struggling like hell. Seorang yang, ada masanya nak mengulangi masa silam nya, tapi tak mampu kerana masa itu adalah bukan mainan yang bisa diputar semula. Warna hitam putih tu pula melambangkan betapa beratnya apa yang telah dia lalui sebelum ni, and how she went through all that, only she knows. The white hairband that she wears melambangkan yang kini dia dah lebih kuat, dan tak perlu lagi dia tutup muka and hide. Like she is saying, it's time for me to stand out from all this misery. Get out from all this black and whites, and perhaps colour her life a bit more. But even whatever happens next, she will never forget what she went through from the past, and what she learnt. The picture is, as if telling that, the history might never change even if I look back a thousand times, but I'm still gonna fight through. The sad face shows that she's leaving it all behind, the misery. The lights behind shows that, there's a chance for her and a bright future awaits. The blurry background tells that none of the past or what people say about her matters, like she doesn't want to care anymore, she has to fight and stand out ! That is what I could tell about this picture, the story hidden beneath it. Bukan semua gambar boleh dikhabarkan cerita yang tersirat disebaliknya, hanya apabila gambar itu kena dengan masa dan keadaan nya. Dan orang yang boleh snap pictures like that is seseorang seperti awak, Annas.

Sincerely, I don't really care of winning this but I just thought that you should know that. That such talent you have, shall not be wasted. Keep on doing this cool job Annas ! I love your work, and will always be a fan ! 

 ** Ingat lagi waktu first time buka page Annas, I thought it was a professional photographer from US or anything, but tengok-tengok eh cakap melayu lah !  And I love that you're not arrogant like certain photographers. Hee !

p/s : Takpe ke I wrote in English ye ? Huu, sorry !

              So Annas Easkey, I hope this is good enough to tell you how great you are =)

                                         Sincerely,

                                                                                                     Myra

Apologies.

Allah lebih faham kita.

Sayang, I really miss you and I am very sorry. I've been a terrible person. I'm just so stressed out, and I just can't seem to handle it any better. I 'm sorry that you have always been the place I threw out everything. I'm sorry I don't appreciate you enough. You deserve so much better of me. I think I might have a serious problem with myself, and I'll try to be better. I know I've said that a thousand times, but please be patient with me. I feel like losing myself and I feel deeply lost. Sometimes I just don't know where to go, and I don't know where to turn to, and finally I just cried. Maybe there's just too much that I felt inside my chest that it felt as if it'll burst any moment. All I can say right now is, I'm really sorry for everything. May I ask for you to always support me? I need you always, and I love you so so much sayang.

                                                                                                Sorry,
                                                                                                         Myra

Entri untuk diri.

Frust sangat-sangat sekarang ni. Ya Allah, kenapa lahhh aku ni keras hati sangat. Kenapa susah sangat aku nak terima kekurangan dalam hidup ni. Tek reti bersyukur. Ada je yang kau nak bidas kan? Kau dah ada semua benda mira, apa lagi yang kau harapkan ? Kau sendiri tak sempurna, jangan nak berangan sangat lah. Cubalah bersyukur, appreciate everything you have. Dia sanggup buat apa je untuk kau, apa lagi tak cukup ? Cinta dia hanya untuk kau selamanya, and you know that. Apa lagi yang tak cukup ? Dia sanggup buat apa je untuk kau, dia tak pernah minta balasan. Apa lagi yang kau nak daripada dia? Dia tu yang sebenarnya yang terlalu baik untuk kau, kau tu tak layak pun untuk cinta yang dia dah berikan selama ni. Apa yang kau buat, cuma sakitkan dia. Itu je yang kau tahu kan. Ego kau tu sampai ke langit pun tak tercecah. Tolonglah, I'm begging you to appreciate. Jangan sampai benda dah takde depan mata, baru kau nak menyesal. Kadang-kadang aku pun menyampah dengan perangai kau ni. Kau betul-betul dah berubah mira. Mana pergi mira yang dulunya penyayang? Yang lembut kata-katanya, yang baik budi dan hati dia. Yang banyak bersabar. Mana pergi perempuan tu? Please change mira, I know you can. Deep down, kau bukan macam ni. Aku tahu  kau tertekan lately, tapi sabarlah. Apa jadi pada prinsip kau tu? 'Biar orang buat kita, jangan kita buat orang'. Mana pergi senyuman bahagia kau? Mana pergi tawa kau? Kenapa sekarang cuma tangisan yang mengiringi malam kau? Mana pergi kekuatan kau sayang? Kau kuat, kau dah lalui semua ni dah berapa tahun. Tapi takde yang tau kan? Kau tak pernah tunjuk sesiapa, kau hadapi sorang-sorang. Depan orang, kau ceria, kau senyum, kau gelak. Tapi aku tahu kau tengah menangis kat dalam. Aku tahu apa yang kau lalui, aku mengerti, aku faham sangat. Kau lembut dan manja orangnya. Tapi lama-kelamaan aku tengok kau banyak simpan perasaan, fikiran kau fikir melalut. You deserve every tiny bit of evertything in life mira, you just don't realise that. Kau nak sesuatu tapi kau selalu tinggal tengah jalan. Bangunlah mira, kau kuat ! Kenapa kau selalu jatuh tersungkur tengah jalan and menangis? Kalau tu dapat reda kan kau, menangis lah sayang, kau tahu aku ada. Aku selalu ada bila orang lain tak tahu, bila kau tebalkan muka kau daripada kesedihan kau. Bila kau ketawa dalam tangisan kau yang mendayu-dayu dalam hati kau tu. Berhentilah berharap mira, kerana harapan hanya akan menjatuhkan kau, kau pun tahu kan? Selalu apa yang kau harapkan, akhirnya mesti takkan jadi. Jadi janganlah berharap sangat, aku taknak tengok kau terluka lagi. Cukuplah, dah lama kau bersedih. Kejarlah impian kau sekarang, sebelum terlepas. Jangan terlepas pandang benda remeh. Those little things are the one that made big things remarkable. Banyak kan sabar, Allah sentiasa bersama dengan orang yang sabar kan sayang? Hargai apa yang kau ada, hargai keluarga kau, adik-beradik kau, dan kekasih kau. Dia sentiasa ada untuk kau, jadi kau tak perlu takut. Satu je mira, jangan pernah lupa jasa orang pada kau. Kalau kau rasa sedih sangat, baca lah entry ni. Kuatkan semangat. Ni adalah hatimu memberi kekuatan pada mu. Jangan terus bersedih sayang, sesungguhnya Kami bersama mu selalu. 

                                                                             Yang sentiasa ada,
                                                                                                          Hati-mu

Imma Lovatic

I am such a big fan of Demi Lovato ! Yippeeee. Actually this is kinda new, I never was a fan of her before, but there was that day that I heard her new song, ' Skyscraper'  that I fell deeply in love with her. Oh, and she got into rehab before, and now she looks stronger and better than ever. I always thought she was this cheerful girl where all her dreams came true. But I came to know that, that is the least of what I actually know. She has this problem, more of a depression ever since she was like what, 7 years old ? Because once, people was always calling her fat and such, and that had made her to cutting herself. I hate it how people could say such terrible words and make people feel so bad until they would do such thing. It's just not fair, no one ever asked to be imperfect, that is. Right, Demi ? I think she is a fighter, on the outside, all people ever saw is her big beautiful smile, but on the inside, she was in vain and only she knew then. Now, she said getting help had made things a little bit easier for her to handle, and thank God for that. She also made these tattoos on both her wrists. On the left says Stay and on the right says Strong. So that whenever she's doing just about anything she'll be able to see her hand that says, Stay Strong. I think that's just beautiful of her. And consider she's lucky cause she's got a whole lot of support system from her family and biggest of all, her true fans. I see many people really loves her, and so do I ! Demi, you've got so many people who will always support you, so do Stay Strong ! =))

I love this picture the most !
You are one gorgeous woman Ms lovato.

Keep singing Demi ! You're an inspiration.

Smile and really mean it okay ! =)

See her left hand?
That's the scars of her cutting herself.
Poor Demi.

Lovatic Forever <3

                                                                                             Lovatic,
                                                                                                            Myra